Tuesday, March 25, 2008

I stand amazed at how you would give up the one thing so precious for my sake. I become speechless and am in absolute awe just thinking about how you had the courage to part with something so wonderful...even though it you knew You'd get 'em back some day. I love how much you care for me. I love that you loved me first even before I came to know You and yes, though I'm in total shock about what you did to me last week, I can honestly say that compared to what you did for me all those years ago, I must say that you win and I'm in no position to argue with you. It just makes me fall in love with you all over again...because there is nothing much else that I can do, really.

You make my good days such a joy, that wish it didn't have to come to an end. And you make my not-so-good days a little easier to live through, just because I know you're the one thing I look forward to spending time with at the end of it all. I love it that when I whine about what a horrible day it was you listen patiently but don't always have something to say in reply. Sometimes just knowing you're there is the best feeling in the world. When I'm insecure, troubled, scared half to death or bugged, you sit me down and tell me to snap out of it because you're fully aware of how it's gonna turn out and if it's meant to be, you'd make it happen.

I don't wanna have to ever give you up because I honestly cannot imagine life without you.

"For I am convinced that neither life nor death, neither angles nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of god that is in Christ Jesus our Lord"
-Romans 8: 38, 39

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Happy Birthday, my girlies!



My dearest Juju,

Happy 21st, my dear! I hope you're settling in decently, if not positively in Melbourne. I'm grateful for the many times you made me laugh with your antics back in school because honestly, sometimes that was about the only thing that made some of my very dreadful days at school. I thank God for blessing me with the privilege of being your friend and I marvel at how much we've grown over the last couple of years (physically apart yet oddly enough still together) and I miss you terribly! When I look at you, I'm always reminded to just be myself and no one else. Thanks for that. I Love You!

Dashi honey,

Happy 21st to you too! I hope you have an amazing year ahead. My life took quite a differnt turn the day I ended up sitting next to you in class waaaay back in Form1! And I wouldn't trade a minute of it. You definitely did bring in the whole shebang when you introduced me to the rest of the group! I sometimes still think (and would then instantly let out a laugh) about how you'd go around with the plastic ruler and I'm glad we've come a long way since then! I think you have one of the best smiles in town. Oh, and thanks for taking me to Mojo's that time, even though I was probably not very good company. I love you heaps, babe!

I hope you have a fantastic year this year and that God would give you the courage and strength to face your days, the patience to deal with people (crummy lecturers included) and the grace to live life to its fullest and in its abundance! I wish I wasn't so far away from y'all...

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

10 Things I HAVE To Do

This is so that I remember what it is that I have to do and since I know for a fact that if I don't write it down somewhere in print, I will most definitely forget it....and these are things I can't afford to forget, largely because they would inevitably affect my grades (most of them anyway). Right now, this happens to be the best 'somewhere' to write this down. So, this is solely for my benefit and no one elses :)
  1. Watch two short films before scriptwriting class for next week (check)
  2. Readings for scriptwriting class (Nichols and Rabiger... who are authors by the way, not some scary disease)
  3. Media Communication IIa readings
  4. Watch 'My Son, the Architect' and/or 'In the land of the dead'
  5. Email Neil and Sarah (check)
  6. Update WORP (check)
  7. Rewrite the music chart for Indescribable and email it to the team (check)
  8. Call Vodafone and suss out stuff (check)
  9. GET A JOB!
  10. Start working on Corporate Community Video Proposal

I plan on finishing at least 5 of those things before the break of dawn so I'm gonna get right to it...after I've stepped out to make me a cuppa (but of course!)

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

So not the political kind but...

I'm not one to dabble in political debates. I accept that as opinionated as I may be, I'm not well read enough to talk about political issues. Maybe part of my ignorance is because of my lack of interest...I mean, it's bad enough that I'm more often than not swamped with and overwhelming amount of workload (yes, I'm known to have a wee breakdown every now and then when things get a bit much); why would I want to spend the little time I have left reading up on who promised to bring down bus fares and abolish the dol as part of their election campaign (which may very well be something I made up for lack of a better example), or which candidate is dissing the president and making endless mentions about how once a Malay person draws out his keris, it must not go back into its sleeve without a good fight? I'd much rather spend time with my family and mates at the beach, or going out for a good 'ol fashion comical movie (because there's nothing quite like it- besides a nice glass of red wine- to unwind after a long and impossibly rainy day). Or better yet, curl up in my happy place and have a heart to heart with my Creator.

But, when the upcomming election is all everyone around you can talk about, especially those who know walnuts about politics, then it becomes worrying. When friends who usually say things like, "man, we Malaysian are so lucky we get to eat all kinds of food" suddenly say things like, "eh, I think we need to pray for Malaysians' wisdom to vote lah" then you KNOW the situation is not so hunky-dory. The thing is though, this country has always needed God and after 50 years, that fact has not changed. Yes, I dare say it's a fact and not a mere opinion. So yes, let's continue to pray that Malaysia votes wisely and that we will move the hand of God to turn the situation around because at this point in time, there really doesn't seem to be much else we can do aye? And I believe with all my heart that if we fervently seek Him, there will come a change that we've been waiting for. After all, God is God, isn't He?

Having said that, I realize that what I'm about to say next is absolutely contradictory to what I've just said. Why is it that we had to wait for all these years before people started to stand up for what they believe in? Why have we waited till now to raise our concerns and speak our minds? Malaysia has always had some sort of political unstability...we've all known it- the seemingly undivided races (but really racial unjustice is one of the biggest underlying problems of this country), the ability to seemingly have free will in worship (but really temples have been broken down and churches have been coerced into shutting down), the seemingly free speech democratic country (but really if you diss the Prime Minister, you better start running because the ISA just might be chasing you down). Why wait till now to bring this all out in the open? Why weren't the opposing parites as gungho before? When did Malaysian politicians start airing out thier dirty laundry to as far as London? Why is this all only happening now when we all KNOW these were issues that were there all along? Why?

...are questions I should probably do some research on before I come back with an answer. Like I said, I don't claim to be in tuned to the politics of this country and I may very well be saying complete and utter bullocks but I'm convinced that at least half of the questions I've raised are not all together wrong.

I am going to bed now and shall not worry my mind off about this because I have quite a long day tomorrow. i might come back with a better explanation for all of this...or not but that's not the point. The point I's like to make here is this: Malaysia, please uphold your leaders and countrymen in your prayers because, this is uproar is not about to dust itself off easily. Big challenges are brewing ahead and if this is not the time Malaysia needs God, then I don't know when is. Join hands and keep P.U.S.H-ing. Keep Praying Untill Something Happens!

Sunday, March 02, 2008

"Oh God, I want it bad...but I want YOU more!"